Yumezaka

After the annual hectic summer, I finally got to sit down and watch it.
AHHHHHH, WELL WORTH THE WAIT!
I'm smitten by the new series! Too bad there's no one around me to share my excitment with.

Now I have to find time to rewatch or make fanart. Hard decision. LOL

I'm sure by now many have heard of the horrific fire at Kyoto Animation.
I remember seeing a few head lines and thought it was an accident. Even then I was worried for my fellow artists working there.
It turns out to be a tragedy beyond belief which shocked me to the core.

I've posted a small art I've dedicated to Kyoto animation with prayers, but I like to get a few thoughts off my chest.
So those who are not interested, thank you for reading till now. I hope we can meet again on a more cheerful subject.

For those who are willing to listen, I thank you in advance.

Although I personally have never working directly with Kyoto Animation, I'm sure they were just as dedicated and hard working as everybody else, if not more.
Seeing many of the people lost are younger than I am, it just rips my hearts to shreds.
I've had the pleasure of teaching and training younger artists before, and to think many were the same age, with the same love of animation and working hard, it's devastating.
It takes years and years to have artists as good as the Kyo-Ani level, and we have just lost what might have been an amazing future.

My colleagues have stopped me from looking too much into the news, probably out of fear of triggering a sprial back into depression.
Even though I understand, and greatly appreciate their concern.
But the headlines and brief articles are enough to make me just stop everything and cry.

I'm just one animator who works in the same industry. I tell myself, my sorrows are nothing compared to what many others who worked there,people who knew them, or what their familes are going through.
And me spiraling into a depression isn't going to help anybody.
So I gather myself up and go back to my everyday life, looking out for the chance I can do something to help. And preparing so I can help when needed.
For now I'm only able to pray. I feel helpless.

I am sad, I feel the future has been ripped apart.
I pray for those more in pain than I am.


Thank you for staying with me till now. I feel this is the only place, a place among artists,is the only place I can say this right now.
So thank you again.

I've been away for a while again. 
First it was health issues, next my computer broke down.
Then I was just really busy that I hardly had time to doodle.

Uploaded a lot of stuff today, not much if you think it's actually a few years worth.

Hope everyone is okay out there.
And thank you for all the kind words even when I'm away.

I've done a SPN fanart(or fan comic)for the first time in years.
It's not that I've moved on or anything, but I had to be weaned off the internet for my treatment.
As I did, at one time I was discouraged any outside stimuli to focus on my own health.
Then I sort of dropped out of the web and many things for years.

Now that I'm back I see there are tons of things to catch up on.
I also see the show and fandom has changed but I still find it much to my liking.
I was sort of worried things might have changed in a way I wouldn't be interested anymore.
The writers on the show are absolutely amazing.

Since I don't want to dive into spoilers and I want to catch up in my own timing, I think I'll steer away from
canon based fanart for now.
Some ideas may be old or completely off, but I hope you can enjoy anyway.

I'll probably be doing Wee!chesters again, since it's the safest and most fun.

Hello everybody out there.
It's been a while since I've posted a journal entry, but I'm completely aghast at my slow progess so I'm going to vent.

I couldn't sleep so I went and made a new list of the Pokemon I had done lineart. I've lost the original list so I had to make one sooner or later. I thought I had done more but NO. There were SO MANY I hadn't done yet. Come to think of it, some were done on paper and others were given away or lost at the place I worked(you can say taken but I'm not sure). I remember the ones I've drawn but a lot didn't have data. ahhhhh *sinks to ground*

Since I'm presently not working with children I don't have anyone to badger me what they want next, so I've been sort of doing as I please and having fun with it. But after making the list I was really deflated. Sort of like the feeling when you look into your trick or treat bag to check your treats and find there's a hole and you've lost some of the treats you were looking forward to. That kind of feeling. Yes, I'm going to use Halloween because it's October and I love Halloween.

Since the new Sun and Moon edition is on it's way I was really hyped up. Now I feel like I need to finish others first. I know there is no pressure anywhere and there is no "you must do it this way" rule but the gloomy feeling looms.

I enjoy doing Pokemon lineart. There's always lots to learn and it's good practise for me. Most of all, it's relaxing for some reason. I guess I just love the style Pokemon has. I'm really on a roll right now so I hope to get more done. I think  I'm feeling better. Thanks to anyone who read through this.